My daughter, Megan is beautiful with a soccer ball. I can get lost just watching her move the ball across the field. She cuts, and fakes and players fall for the moves. She dribbles up the field, splits the defenders and makes it to the box just in front of the goal. I watch in eager in anticipation and she…passes the ball. Sometimes it is a beautiful pass that turns into an assist as her teammate scores but often it is a beautiful pass that ends up wasting all of the work she has done to get it to that point.
“If you don’t shoot, you can’t score,” we would tell her after each and every game. Finally we stopped repeating it. We let her play her game and hope that one day she will get that desire to shoot the ball and score, that that goal will give her the shooting bug and she will continue to shoot and score.
In life and on the field, it takes more than just talent to achieve our goals. It takes desire and passion and just a little bit of bravado. It takes putting yourself out there and shooting the ball even if you think it might not hit the top right corner of the net.
I have spent the past thirty years dreaming about being a writer, of putting my work out there in front of other people and having them respond positively. But until a couple of years ago I refused to shoot the ball – out of fear. I was afraid of what people would think about something I poured my heart into. Instead I wrote stories on my computer that no one every saw, filled journals with my thoughts and every few years tossed the notebooks with the other unwanted items from our house. I refused to take the chance, to shoot the ball. Until one day, I did. I wrote an essay about Megan and showed it to my husband because I knew he would be interested in the subject. After reading it, he encouraged me to take the chance. I sent it in and received the positive response I had always hoped for.
Since that time I have taken the chance over and over again. I write and I submit or I write and I post. Sometimes I get a positive response, sometimes I don’t, but I am not scared anymore. I am taking the chance and that is the whole point. I am pursuing a lifelong dream to be a writer and dreams don’t come along everyday. Maybe I will get published in Runner’s World or Sports Illustrated or write a book that ends up on the bestsellers lists and maybe I won’t but it turns out that shooting (or in my case writing) is the best part of the game.
Ann,
You are so right; I too have been paralyzed by that same fear! I take chances with my running — doing my first ultra in 2007 (HUFF 50K), and now need to take that chance/trail of writing in front of others. I guess you could say writing is a lot like running trails in the woods… you never know what’s around the next turn unless you are out there putting in the effort.
I am going to bookmark this page as I have enjoyed reading your words for the first time. : ) I found your site through “Trailrunner Magazine.”
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How, thank you for the comments. I am glad you enjoyed the read. You really should get your stuff out there. It is harder than I thought to get responses but what I am finding right now is that responses from readers is enough. Soon I hope that more magazines will pick up my work but the process is different than I thought. The hardest part is when they don’t get back to you. Runner’s World is notorious for that. Trailrunner Magazine was great. They didn’t take my work for the magazine but they liked it and put it online and their newsletter. It is a start. Even when I get outright rejections it isn’t so bad. Most of the editors are really nice about it. The thing I didn’t expect is the amount of sales work I do now. I have to think like a salesman and I haven’t had to do that in years. I would love to help you get past this fear. Let me know if there is anything at all I can do. In the meantime great job with the running. I haven’t done an ultra in a long time but I loved it when I did. I am marathoning now and trying to qualify for Boston. Once that is done I think I will head back to the ultras.
Thanks again for reading my article and taking the time to find more of my writing. Hope you have a great day.